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Become Untriggerable
. Now that is a tall order. That would be hard, or maybe impossible. But 'become less triggerable' sounds mamby pamby. mamby pamby? What does that even mean?
I'm thinking funny snarky one liners. Life mantra: don't be a . . . in the voice of Charlie Sheen. But Charlie is opposed to Donald so he's off in rant land himself. Fine for him. He's got his own problems and I'm on his side in solving the dilemas of the world, he won my heart a long long time ago by not being that thing that he says not be. Offense as it sounds, and it really is, which is why I don't use it, the sucinctness of it . . . as a life plan. Sadly, unfortunately, we all fail at one thing or another. But . . . theer is great hope for the world when I tell you a secret thing. It's a secret becase it's all about you and your deepest and hardest fears from when you were a teenager.
Oh, if you are still a teenager, then maybe you are still deep down inside your own dark forest of gloomy possibilities for you. When the blizzard hits . . . (when the blizzard hits) you won't want to have been venturing out into your dark forest of self-rediculousness. Let it be day light in your delusions, for a time. It's better that way. You can chart your way out of there. Take out your map and cell phone. But you don't have service down in your deep forest of dark ego, burning up drawings of demons that you said you had in your self back in the time, of that day, in that day time. But it was night time. And he had six packs of brew that he carried by locking his fingers in the plastic. They don't use that kind of thing anymore because animals would get their heads caught in them.
Back in the dark forest of fearful ego, back in the time, in the day, at night, in the time of the day which was dusk to dawn, off in the windy forests of night, a revine that you know, a revine that you do not know. A path that is lit in your mind but dark, in front of you, but you know where it is. You are off in this forest, travelling through the deepest delusions of fearful self-inflicted expectations of some unknown and akward quality. A screech owl howls, fluttering wings in the high branches. Snow tumbles out of the pines in the rill near the revine. Not quite sure how close. Secret Gorge. Old Chinese man at the comic book store had a special deal for you and it was a great deal. You've still got it in it's little baggie, two different titles. Snow on the trail. The stream, again, it's rushing, the water from the swamp is partly frozen. You could try to cross. How deep is it exactly? How far deep and down in to that mirous place would you sink? Toads in Winter? polywogs still just tiny one celled eggs in the still water. Heaven is called that, but what do toad call it? And chirping in the Spring time? What does that one word, which all the peepers use, mean? And surely it is not mean (mean or angry).
If it were Springtime. And I was back with you. And we had travelled out far into those deep dark forests at night with the sound of the peepers off in the mudswamp, up in the hardwood bog. The smell of the Springtime fresh like fog rolling between the hills and rills. Some cow got loose and wondered here. She's lain against a giant oak. She calfed there below the moon. There is joy in the woodland. Forest seems kinder now, woodland seems wise. Even the fox pauses just slowly. Looks over at the babe cow (calf), looks over at you wtih your comic book purchase. It's midnight and the evening is colder now. The rest of her herd is coming here, because she has called out to them, and they will all come now, one by one, the most respected first, to see this new born calf and , one assumes, in whatever way steers do, congratulate the new mother.
And all the worries of the world didn't mean anything. The old moon was kind just then rising so you notice between the herding cows, along the path at the far side of the field, and the old stone wall that marks the pasture.
What were you fears? Your school bus worries? Your expectations of things that were never even actual, that couldn't ever get there because they had no substance. The fear was the biggest foe. The fear of something unsubstantiated, some imginaation of forces and powers, and portents and potentates, people with great . . . force that effects you, as if they have the power, that fearful power, over you, to make you, cast you into the pit, or to put you on the highest branch and sing you lulibyes.
The something that you fear problem, about which you worry, and which vexes you all day and haunts your dreams, is solved by realizing that there isn't anything to solve. The problem is the belief in a problme, which has no substance.
Become Untriggerable be triggered to untrigger, neigh, be free of that kind of operation. become untriggerable It's not very far from handsome luminous political visionary to the perp room. don't just be a legend in your own mind . . . keep yourself out of jail there is no virtue is rioting. There are no awards for looting. You will get a lot of attention. You will be sought, but they won't let you back on that stage till you spend some time in a cage. There is no virtue in political violence nothing useful for the future, no multi-generational urge fulfilled, or happy ancestors finally glad that something real has finally occured. the rvolution was generations ago. No need for any of that old-world nonsense here. If you need a revolution the only ones of value and, with a do-it-yourself quality: you have a revolution of heart. you expand your purpose by withdrawing from your own delusions. you work on yourself first and you stop there. Help when they need you to help. Be there to carry and bring. If you think it's only glass, glass is very expensive. Even though glass seems cheep, and common, and almost of little or no value the fact is that it is one of our most important resources, and valuble and would be very hard to replace if it were all to suddenly need to be with some alternative material. Breaking glass and windows, shattering doors, or floor to ceiling architectural panes is the sign of temper tantrum. It's not to be encouraged. there is no applause for you, if you behave as such. The logistics of glass, the billoting for all of the glass-replacement guys, the people in the office scehduleing the appointment to come and do the replacement but they can't do it for a few days. It doesn't happen all at once. They got to ship it in, it's a special fit. It might take a week or two because of back order. Ship it in, it's a special fit. How come you can't wait a day or three or 21? Shivering in the cold with the rain blowing in? At the highschool where they smashed out all the windows no body can go to glasses without wearing a coat. And crows and ravens fly through the giant hollow casements and lower classmen running for cover, one being carried away by a giant condor something he'd never seen before. and because it'd become such a great nesting place for rare birds The EPA Came there one day and declared it a Hollywood High Forest Preserve in the upper part of that giant theatre famous people going to see their kids's kids perform and everyone clapping even thourh there are not glass panes in the giant casements. They can wait another year, month, day, and amybe the person from the glass company will call them back when their special order panes finally become available You should alreayd know all of this. The logistics of getting windows replaced special order panes. There were no panes at the county jail they'd all been smashed out. So the prisoners sat and shivered. Send in the lawyers. The judge rules that the windows be replaced the lawyer say boyyettee! the custodian of the big public building had already planned to do all of that budget to come from the fund for the ??? the logistics of replacing glass? Who gets to pay and who must stay in the cold room huddled. Oh, that lawyer loved loved that young protestors so very very much that that lucky judge, handsome second pages all of their smiling pictures, that judge let the happy lawyer go and bring our little detainee extra blankets to protect him from the snowflakes tumbling in through the open casements.
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Become Untriggerable
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Be nice to yourself and others. What other choice?
What we have done What we have failed to do.Wake up!
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A lot can happen in a year. I used to update these pages all the time. Maybe I could start doing that again?
Today was the day of setting the clocks forward.
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No one who contacts me about work seems to provide any serious prospects, like they are just hazing me..
The realization that much of what you find on line is just bots messing with people and trying to train them to be ineffective at debate by making them revert to insults, putdowns, and sub-human behavior makes social media seem to be a wasteland. It is best to not participate in that.
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Seasons change month to month and sometimes we get back to what we left to the side.
well most news was about the raid a few weeks ago, I read up on what I could find.
I read up on it but I didn't try to spend too much time dwelling on it.
I wrote some things. But I can only observe these things. I wish not to be seen as being one who understands what it going on in the world these days. I try to learn what happens and try less to 'splain about the peeps involved. That whole 'It's them!' finger pointing is bogus and discordant to an eccumenical and open hearth world view.
And those who seek to live within a meta where they rule the world as a cartoon avatar persona . . . and do their pyramid scheme money-thang and their virtuality as if it's real . . . They do as they will and I have no say over their futures. So why do they pretend to have a say over mine?
The answer is: that if they live within a meta, then their rules are for them there. Outside of that, in the real world, those of us who aren't crazy with self-entitled ideation, and wealth beyond measure that enables us to put the equipment on, and all of it's tethering and attachments and live within that matrix world . . . all of us who do not wish to join them in what seems to be a depraved cult of wish fulfillment cooupled with a magical point of view about the fate of peoples and persons . . . all of us who have not gone crazy like that . . . you can't really expect us to let you carry on and try to rule us from within your cage of technology?
video gaming morphed into 'meta world creation' because the games were too depraved that had the cool world layouts that people like. The puzzles one loves to solve, and the cool graphics that one wants to see were those times interspersed with simulated acting out of depraved behaviors, like having to kill all the other characters in the scene before one moves on to the next level.
So at some point you trained yourself to not do it, to click through the depravity as if it's not there, and maybe miss a creepy backstory. I gave up playing those kinds of games, and I still ike to watch old replays, but I fast forward through the gun fight parts, the ghouls who hound Lara Croft in the end levels of, say Tomb Raider aniversary are tiresome and almost designed to make the players hate this kind of depravity in a game, as if the writers are telling their funders ;Really, a kill anything that seems alive simulation? Like clones could never be born without a need to kill everything else in the proximity from where it emerged? Well, we all know what happend to the Lora Croft franchise, and most video games.
But the graphics can be compelling and fun, so people still get some enjoyment out of it.
And those who think that they can rule from within a meta? they have the persona of the villianous ancient ghoul who haunts Laura through out here travels. Watch a walk through of tomb Raider Aniversary. Feel free to fast forward through the psychopathic parts. But do listen to the banter and the dialog. Spoiler alert: Laura has a lot of soul searching to do.
Aug 29, 2022 Tell us how you really feel
sometimes you just need to remove kruft.
Politics never ends but sometimes it's better to remain mute. Mostly when there is nothing needing or wanting to be said.
but that is no one, that has not hapened to anyone you made it up. thankfully true.
We move along. We keep doing for ourselves. We survive. We don't let the world define who and what we are, or how we feel, or what any of this really means.
And if they have bad humor, and will not forgive they will hate you then.
but at least in that story they leave you alone after all of that
They dont' always leave you alone. It seems they still sometimes want to connect to try to draw that cray cray narrative out one more time. And you have to explain that, no, sorry, this is a bit. You caught me while I was writing a character, that's not me. I am using tht as a dialog in a paly that I'm having my character write inside of his narrative, he's writing his own play about a guy writing a play.
It's like he feeds on it, I get bothered that he lets me go on with it.
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It's August. People are harvasting their tomatoes. Other people don't have any tomatoes. The chipmunks will eat every single one while it's still very tiny. You need a fortified and fenced in garden.
9:12 AM EST Thursday Aug 29, 2022
Greetings from tree shaded yard!
Praise The Lord for insight given!
as an example . . . I have tried to do some introspective things as I come into awareness of my own flaws, and recognize the way I act and correct my self and make a better narrative for myself and for others.
you raise me up from far away when a memory of you lifts me!
Somethings never change nothing need stay the same ah, but on a website the constant change is kind-of the point . . .
change without continuity and tradition is often very hard to manage for those thrust into it. And thus the frame of things gives a place for the change to happen. If you violate that idea then you are coming up with something completely different and maybe no one will want to see your new idea, or use your great, new venue, because it's too far out, and very far away from what they currently care about. It's a nether or a meta and it's merely for a lark? Or does it become the next big thing? As fun as graphics are (CGI) and animation, and making a world to fly around in (like minetest, which is easy when you learn how) ultimately such a meta is a hollow place. It's a distraction during the season of gaming. It allows one to brush up on geometry and math, and architectural design, it gives people training in computer languages, it allows someone to make some graphical ideas, and pass a few hours of time every few days or so . . .
To live within such a realm really isn't possible.
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The deep snow. She doesn't know how deep. She didn't think about it. Depth of snow no one know in rills and hollows where you shouldn't go when the storm is fierce and the night is cold even you shouldn't be so bold. poem is from 2012 short story titled Blizzard Baby The morning light is hued in cold awareness. Warming in the sun the bunny explores the snow covered lawn. The tracks melt by mid morning. Bunny doesn't know what the song means, anyway. This giant bubble that we call awareness? How could it have been formed? Seemingly hollow, it's filled up with you reading this and wondering where does this idle poet get his idle hours to spew out this bubble web of hollowness? 🚦 🚧 🚨 🚩 🚪 🚫 🚬 🚭 🚮 🚯 🚰 🚱 🚲 🌛 🌑 🌒 🌓 🌔 🌕 🌖 🌗 🌘 🌙 🌚 🌛 🌜 🌝. 🚤 🚥 sometimes there is beauty within the fragments . . . 🌜🌜🌜🌝🌛🌛🌛 Sprongg . . . onng . . . ongg ga Her tired morning seems more like poetry than anything you can find on a blog. Bark Bark. Bark Bark. Tree Bark Bark. Bark Bark. Dog 🌑 🌒 🌓 🌔 🌕 🌖 🌗 🌘 🌙 🌚 🌛 🌜 🌝. 🚤 🚥 Woof and woe🌝 🌑 🌒 🌓 🌔 🌕 🌖 🌗 🌘 🌙 🌚 🌛 🌜 🌝. 🚤 🚥 Space Ship snowman floats off towards Billy Perilli, writer of all of the things on this blog. 🌜🌜🌜🌝🌛🌛🌛
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After 40 different versions what can one say about it anymore? It's installed in all my systems, a day earlier. There are a few minor issues, but no show stoppers.
I did some stuff with lvm to resize a root area. That took a very long time. It's on a machine that maybe just should be retired . . .
April 22, 2024 12:02 PM
Ya, I decided to load Fedora Core 38 Beta about a month ago, and this machine kept shutting down . . . I think I finally fixed it. Tomorrow is the big release day for the Fedora Core 38. My production workstation is still running FC37. I don't know if I'll jump right on it right away. . .
my server is still resetting, or maybe I have it fixed. I decided to just remove plasma-desktop, as I don't use it. The journals were giving all kinds of errors with that, and I think that might have been the issue, conflicting with the gdm that I do use. Worst case I'd just go to runlevel 3 but, as I said in another column, I don't really even know if anyone views these pages anyway.
My production box would upgrade but the dnf says it would downgrade grum and associated tools, and that's never a good thing to do. I'm just not going to do it! anyway I'll check tomorrow when the offical release is and probably do it then. If I'm in the mood.
So now I've run every version of Fedora serving this website! that's a long time.
April 17, 2023 8:28 PM ESThere is from a year ago:
It took some time to figure out how to defeat the new screensaver built in, but I was able to. It's the biggest downside to the new Gnome.
I set the keybindings to something I don't use, and then put in a custom keybinding to use the old tool.
There are other minor things that annoy too, like the restoration of a deleted file that I always have to delete again on every FC core upgrade. The file is name camera-shutte.oga. It's in /usr/share/sounds/freedesktop/stereo
1:12 AM EST 9 April, 2022
At the precipice of coding.
a mountain trail often has a place with a great view and a perilous fall if you wonder just a bit too far to one side of the trail. It's called a precipice. It's not a scary place. It's a safe place that one passes through.
OK, so I've done an update to FC34.
the biggest issue was . . . . drum roll . . .a lock up of gnome.
and if i clicked on the activities button I would need to reload (log out log back in).
I was able to run stuff without that, and thus determined a list of files that might need to be removed. I did as full reinstall of gnome as such:
dnf reinstall gnome
then I did a
dnf list installed |grep fc33
which gave me a list of files to consider uninstalling.
from that I got the following:
first odd issue:
sudo was not at first working! I had to install it! I kept the configuration file so I have my preferences still set up.
dnf install sudo dnf reinstall gnome-* dnf reinstall kde* dnf reinstall NetworkManager* dnf remove gnome-screensaver dnf remove gnome-shell-extension-desktop-icons-20.04.0-2.fc33.noarch dnf remove xorg-x11-xkb-extras-7.7-33.fc33.x86_64 dnf remove compat-openssl10-1:1.0.2o-11.fc33.x86_64 dnf remove mozjs60-60.9.0-7.fc33.x86_64
there are still some fc33 packages, (I also looked for fc32 packages, anything older that was gnome)
sudo dnf list installed |grep fc33 biber.noarch 2.14-4.fc33 @fedora gamin.x86_64 0.1.10-37.fc33 @fedora libgta.x86_64 1.0.9-5.fc33 @fedora
if removing a package also removed large numbers of other packages, I left it. For each of the few that I did remove, I always would make sure by reading what would happen before agreeing to the transaction.
now the gnome-shell is working and it doesn't lock up. So which of the packages that I removed made the difference? I am not sure.
and so after just a few short hours of install, I've got my system working in away that seems normal.
the new gnome shell moves the icons to the bottom of the screen.
I find gnome-shell to be annoyingly poppy at times. I tend to do things rapidly, and all the popping can be nauseating.
It is helpful to learn how to use dnf. I've found that the reverse history stuff works as long as you haven't made too many changes. It's a dicey, though, to try and go back to an older revision but I did it ONCE. Next time it didn't work out so well. AT that point it was installing dnf and yum from rpms.
and I had success. It's the kind of thing that when you know how to do it . . .
but there was one other trick that I needed and it was a scary way to reset a password and I did discover how to do it. I'm not sharing that one (barely remember) it's like these things exist in a nether, and it's best to . . . let the knowledge fade unless you need it. It's too scary to dwell in that space.
anyway, gnome shell is working. It's not flighty and hanging up. And all it took was to remove the old packages of gnome that might conflict with it. And now I can continue with my review.
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